maugry – adj. afraid that you’ve been mentally deranged all your life and everybody around you knows, but none of them mention it to you directly because they feel it’s not their place.
I don’t know that I quite feel maugry, though I certainly sometimes wonder if I view the world much differently (and strangely) than others. I certainly think in polite society that others often won’t point out something that others do or say that is very strange.
I also like to think that often I have lots of empathy and understanding of how others view the world, though maybe that means I am actually deranged from others’ point of view and I should feel maugry.
From the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows