foilsick – adj. feeling ashamed after revealing a little too much of yourself to someone – allowing them too clear a view of your pettiness, your anger, your cowardice, your childlike vulnerability – wishing you could somewhat take back the moment, bolting the door after a storm had already blown it off its hinges.
What a visual. The door blown off its hinges from a storm, and you desperately trying to set it back into the opening.
Blurting out something in an emotional moment is likely something many people have done. I would guess parents as much as teenagers feel foilsick after an argument or a moment of passion in which they say something they didn’t mean.
In the modern world, we might do that with messages or emails as well. I find myself trying to avoid putting myself into the place where I might feel foilsick and I often take a moment to draft something in Joplin (my notetaking app) before I put it into Slack or email. I can’t accidentally send it and then feel some regret over what I said.
I think the avoidance of ever feeling foilsick often leads many of us to not say something we feel, or admit a challenge, precisely so that we aren’t vulnerable and regret our words. As I grow older, I realize that being vulnerable isn’t going to create a foilsick feeling in many cases. It’s going to bring me closer to someone else, or help them help me.
From the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows